dusk

i found myself walking along baywalk the other day just before sundown. i was there to catch the sunset but i got disappointed because there were no clouds.

clouds give out a more dramatic effect to sunsets. instead of just having a glowing red orb slowly disappearing into the sea, clouds can add drama by hiding the sun and slowly letting its rays come out. that i like.

but this time there were no clouds so i decided to pack up and leave for a scheduled dinner with friends. but after i put the cam inside my bag, i noticed the byutipul hues above me.

the sun had set but yep, the sky was still alight with calming colors. t'was dream time. those few precious minutes before the dark finally sets in and shrouds the last rays of the sun.

before i would usually take off immediately after sunset but this time i felt that something was in the air.. so i took out my cam and took some shots. here's one.

i don't know but there was something magical about those few minutes. it was like the air was pregnant with the so many possibilities that the night has to offer. and yet, there was also that relaxing feeling that a day had ended.

i lingered on and before i knew it I was already late for dinner. but my friends understood. the pics were worth it. =)

melts in your mouth, not in your...

tumawag ang tita ko mula sa tate nuong sabado upang kamustahin ang pinadala niyang balikbayan box na pangkrismas sana pero nung huwebes lang dumating.

habang nagkwekwento ito ang aking nasabi:

"ay maraming salamat auntie. yup. nakuha na namin. me spam, peanut butter, planters peanuts. yung bag ng chocolates? ay wala pero ok lang kasi maraming butterfingers. ang sarap nga ng cadburys, m2m.... at...at...at....."

bigla akong natigilan nang marealize ko ang lumabas sa aking bibig.

"ay auntie dapat makabisita ka ulit dito kasi namumunga na yung indian manggo sa labas. ang sarap paghinalo sa...blah...blah...blahh."

hindi rin nakasagot si auntie kagaad kaya ako na lang ang nagkwento ng nagkwento habang hoping na sana wala sa vocabulary ng mga fil-ams ang m2m.

i'll be turning 32 this year but i haven't come out to my relatives. pero smart naman sila kaya am sure they know, particularly my auntie, na ilang beses na akong nirereto sa iba't-ibang babae to no avail.

pero hindi ko lang talaga binalak na sa ganitong paraan ako maglaladlad sa kanya. hehe.

let the mourners come

W. H. Auden


Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.

Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message He Is Dead,
Put crepe bows round the white necks of the public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.

He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last for ever: I was wrong.

The stars are not wanted now: put out every one;
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun;
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood.
For nothing now can ever come to any good.

reminder

please carefully go through his grammar. you might find many red flags there. actually.

castles burning

Old man sitting by the side of the road
With the lorries rolling by,
Blue moon sinking from the weight of the load
And the building scrape the sky,

Cold wind ripping down the alley at dawn
And the morning paper flies,
Dead man lying by the side of the road
With the daylight in his eyes.

Don't let it bring you down
Its only castles burning,
Find someone who's turning
And you will come around.

Blind man running through the light of the night
With an answer in his hand,
Come on down to the river of sight
And you can really understand,

Red lights flashing through the window in the rain,
Can you hear the sirens moan?
White cane lying in a gutter in the lane,
If you're walking home alone.

Don't let it bring you down
It's only castles burning,
Just find someone who's turning
And you will come around.

Don't let it bring you down
It's only castles burning,
Just find someone who's turning
And you will come around.

the shopping bags

i remember you hurrying up the escalator
my shopping bags unintentionally hitting your feet
again, and again, and again
and you, turning back, break into a smile

missing

i miss walking
home along the empty alleys
of causeway after midnight
the neon lights flickering
the pavement wet after the rain