let the mourners come

W. H. Auden


Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.

Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message He Is Dead,
Put crepe bows round the white necks of the public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.

He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last for ever: I was wrong.

The stars are not wanted now: put out every one;
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun;
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood.
For nothing now can ever come to any good.

reminder

please carefully go through his grammar. you might find many red flags there. actually.

castles burning

Old man sitting by the side of the road
With the lorries rolling by,
Blue moon sinking from the weight of the load
And the building scrape the sky,

Cold wind ripping down the alley at dawn
And the morning paper flies,
Dead man lying by the side of the road
With the daylight in his eyes.

Don't let it bring you down
Its only castles burning,
Find someone who's turning
And you will come around.

Blind man running through the light of the night
With an answer in his hand,
Come on down to the river of sight
And you can really understand,

Red lights flashing through the window in the rain,
Can you hear the sirens moan?
White cane lying in a gutter in the lane,
If you're walking home alone.

Don't let it bring you down
It's only castles burning,
Just find someone who's turning
And you will come around.

Don't let it bring you down
It's only castles burning,
Just find someone who's turning
And you will come around.

the shopping bags

i remember you hurrying up the escalator
my shopping bags unintentionally hitting your feet
again, and again, and again
and you, turning back, break into a smile

missing

i miss walking
home along the empty alleys
of causeway after midnight
the neon lights flickering
the pavement wet after the rain

after 32 missed calls and 8 text messages...

"oh anong nangyari sa yo?"

he was standing outside my door after i ignored all of his text messages and missed calls the previous hour.

kainez kasi. after hearing not a peep from him for a month, he suddenly invited me for a round of drinks. he'll be in our area daw kasi coz he's taking some classes sa aim.

ako naman si baklita, omokey kaagad kasi sabi niya di kasama si misis. but i reminded him na i'll be coming from qc and might get home only at around 10 in the evening. sabi niya wag daw masyado late kase he had to get up early in the morning for his classes.

so after i got out of work, i immediately texted him na i was on the road na. e bigla ba namang nag inarte.

nung una sabi niya di ba raw pwede na 9 pm na lang kami kita. e haller. nasa sto domingo pa kaya ko nun. and then he replied kung pwede raw iresked na lang namin for today or tomorrow.

sabi ko hinde kasi me work akesh.

e bigla ba namang humirit na magtaxi na langd a wako para mapaaga ang dating sa balaysung (ano siya jowa ko!) at inulit ang suggestion na resked na lang namin pag 10 na me dating.

so naimbierna to the max si ako! ava! ava! ava! hindi akesh ang nag invite noh. and i had to cancel pa a previous engagement for our meeting tapos siya pa ngayon ang gustong magresked.

bigla ko tuloy naalala ang advice ng isang frendiva na kalimutan na siya dahil isa siyang str8t na me asawa na. nagalit ako at naalala ang lahat ng sacrifices ko sa kanya (like going through and enduring his wedding as his bestman).

sa galit ko binura ko text messages niya at number at di na sumagot for the next hour habang paapuwi na me.

nakahalata ata dahil nevir ko talagang inanswer ang kanyang calls. pinagtitinginan na nga me ng mga katabi ko sa bus kasi i just let my phone vibrate hanggang sa tumigil siya.

i vowed never to answer him again...ayoko ng pinaglalaruan.

kaya bumili na lang me ng late dinner sa jollibee and was planning on watching tv na lang when i got home.

but only after a few seconds after i got home at 10 and closed the door behind me, me pumarang karu sa aming harapan. my ged!

i was desperately hoping na hindi siya kasi baka mawalan ko ng poise at magdrama sa harap niya.

"oh anong nangyari sa'yo?" sabi niya behind the screen ng aming main door.

"bat di ka sumasagot? nahablot ba phone mo?"

hindi ako sumagot.

hindi ko alam kung magagalit ba ako o matutuwa o sasarhan ko ba siya ng pinto.

"tuloy pa ba tayo?" was all i could say.

"yup" at napansin kong nakabihis na nga siya.

he tried asking me again sa car kung anong nangyari pero deadma na lang ako and changed the subject....

we ended at 2 am dahil may work pa rin naman ako. he had to get up early at 5:30 for his class. sabi niya 4 hours lang daw tulog niya the previous evening.

we're going out again tonight.

is he big or what?

take it off!take it off! and zip! =D

yeeesssss!!!!

ako...

was having dinner recently when i overheard someone say: "i'm voting for *** for gay lib."

MISMO!!!!

makaregister na nga after 48 years. ay wait, 30 lang pala. lech.....

i decide

you never called after i brought you home...shet...karma for me nga has always been quick...indeed...but i've learned my lessons well, and one of them is to never again let another person determine my happiness.

and no. you weren't that good.

na oneway

na oneway ako kanina. di nagpakita ang ka eb. and to think that i did it for him dahil ang kulit na niya. e di nga nagpakita (sumipot naman daw siya) so bumili na lang ako ng rice cooker (huh?). next!!!

pochero

"ba't di ka nagsama? this is the time to make major announcements."

the question thrown at me caught me off guard. i was with my college friends in trinoma. it had been been years since we last met and they all came with their partners. one couple even brought their baby along. I was the only single guy (gal) in the group.

"so, bat di mo ginaya si (a gay friend who brought his uber cute and sophisticated [did i say mataray?] bufra along)?"

i wanted to say the guy i wanted to introduce to them got married last month and i've never heard from him again.

"ah. wala e."

i wanted to tell them that another guy i was considering was in singapore, complaining about his wife back here in manila.

"uy, ano ito? mukhang masarap."

i wanted to tell them about this guy i want settle down with but he was too tired to come after having an early morning date with one of his security guards.

"ang sarap ng pochero ano?" i said wanting to change the topic.

"pochero anyone?"

post mortem

Dear_____,

I hated you for always making me wait 10 to 15 minutes whenever we met.

I hated you for never remembering any of my birthdays.

And i hated you even more for always being good at making excuses.

But then thank you. For the music. The yosi. The moments I wanted to smother you with love but couldn't.

You know I wouldn't have made it alive through high school if it weren't for you. Thank you for guiding me back...

The next time our paths cross, I'll break your neck.

Everlasting love,
_______


P.S. pakisabi na lang kay misis na hindi ko sinasadyang matapakan ang gown niya. inirapan kasi ako.

hindi ko rin sinasadyang maging tuliro nang binibigkas ninyong dalawa ang mga walang hanggang pangako. magaling naman talaga akong humawak ng mike. ibang klase nga lang.....