disappointment

some people let me down today. people i trusted, which is all the more painful. it's a bit funny coz growing up, i learned early on to rely on myself. that's why it surprises me to discover sometimes that, i guess, i haven't really learned that lesson quite well. still.

i'm not the kind of guy who has much guile and uses people. i'm pretty transparent. but sometimes i wonder if it wouldn't hurt if i let the scheming bitch in me get heard. people don't respect you if you're the happy, smiling guy, who's all too accomodating. this year, i promise this is going to change. nyahahhahaa.